i am sorry

我真的已经有很努力的在这里生活了
但是为什么老天爷还是不要放过我？
我很想回家...对不起...

不要问我

不要问我我为什么回来。。。
不要问我最近好不好。。。
不要问我成绩怎样。。。
不要问我为什么心情不好。。。
不要问我。。。
不要问我。。。
不要问我。。。

这次回来真的很大压力>.<
为什么就是没有一件事是顺心的？
妈妈讲这是我自己选择的路，
所以就算用爬的都要爬过去，
我不敢告诉任何人我现在有多惨，
因为我不想要得到别人的同情，
这样我会觉得自己真的比惨还要更加的惨，
看到这篇blog的朋友不要担心，
我只是发发牢骚而已，
等下又会是一条好汉！

ps：做么我放不到照片上来的？

十月的十五～

刚看完mary的blog～
我就在想要是是以前的我被爸爸妈妈念我肯定骂粗话骂到太平洋去～
但是来了这里之后就突然很羡慕他可以被念！是不是觉得我很变态？
okay咯～是有点啦～哈哈～XDD
今天才跟serena讲我不想让我的刘爸爸刘妈妈觉得送我出来但是我却没有长大！
而且～真的觉得很想每天起床都可以看到他们～跟他们聊天～
所以！我决定我回去之后我要天天陪我爸爸妈妈吃晚餐～
就算我要和朋友出去我也要先陪他们吃完晚餐～<3
各位兄弟姐妹！回去后你们要体谅我okay！
然后我还给我自己定了一个门禁！就是12点一定要回到家～
是不是很Cinderella？将才cute吗～哈哈～XDD
啊！现在真的很想快快考完试然后回家！
快了快了～好好准备！然后考试！然后回家～
哦yeah～～～


ps：今天我家小刘～刘来猪生日！OMG！18岁了！
想送他手表～但是又觉得要是用爸爸妈妈给我的钱没给他很没有意义！
所以等我明年上year2的时候去打工然后用我的第一份工钱买一只好料的手表给他！
是不是觉得我很伟大？哈哈～XDD我也是那么觉得！自己连一只好料的手表都没有还要拿来送他！
真的是不了解啊～>.我已经帮他想好他的三个愿望是什么了！okay！所以他不用许了！哈～
第一，希望他不要再每天打dota！
第二，希望他脚踏实地好好想自己的未来！
第三，希望他快点找到girl friend！毕竟人活到18岁还没有他过恋爱真的会很尴尬！（姐姐的金玉良言）
而且他其实长得很不错～心地又善良～重点是他帮过senggarang的水果摊抓小偷！
是不是？基本就是好公民一个！不有可能没有人要的吗是不是～
来！有兴趣的可以跟我要他号码！
但是最好不要是那种小小一只的女生！因为他真的很讨厌矮矮又小小只的那种～
最后也不要像我这种胖胖的身材因为比起矮矮小小的他更讨厌胖胖的！

today isn't my day =(

totaly, i can say today really really SUCK!!!mlm
first! i cannot use printer in college untill next sem as restriction of my paper almost finished!MMD!!
what a suck bradford!feessssss charge more then uni but restriction of paper less than uni.KNS!
second, today i saw my votarist with a MMD girl walking hand in hand!
totally brake my heart!!gosh!
such a good and brilliant boy but wrecked by a MMD girl!so much pity~

what the 奶奶's hell !!!

just finished my resposible for the part of economic's assignment!
i should feel very happy and very relax, right?
BUT!!dun think too easy, ok!?!
because i still have to assist that hell guy to check his part!
奶奶的～not only the representation but also the grammer!!

Good luck, Jade.

today is 8th Nov o.O!!!
that means tomorrow is 9th Now!!
gosh~ tomorrow i have to sit IELTS test=(
i almost reget to register the test!can i cancel it?
argh~~~feel like i dig a deep trap and push myself into!
so stressted!!althought i know i would not pass!
and i already made up my mind that when i back to malaysia i will sit for the second time!
so i should not be worried!right? but im not!!!im damn worried!kill me pls!
i know how hard that is!otherwise there wouldn't have a lot of gossips about failing in the test!!
BUT! i have no choice! i must sit! i have to sit!!!mlm
today we have tried some speaking and reading tests in english class,
and i just realised how hard that test really really is! really beyond my imagination=(
i really didn't prepare anything about the test in the previous weeks!
therefore, in the last few hours i also will not do any practise because i know it is too late!!
now what i still can do is pray for myself only!
good luck, Jade.

do you know that

do you know that,
as your friend!im so stressed!so depressed!
bcs you always keep asking me about am i angry with you?
am i dislike you?or you will keep telling me how much you jealous with me!
what the fucking hell!!!